Life Rots

Hi no pics today.
Sorry speak to Hello.

Thoughts to exorcise from head for today

Tired of being a single mother
with two beautiful girls to protect
while experiencncing severe emotional trauma.

No, this is not an open invitation to hurters - be aware that I am on my guard.

Overwhelmed at the idea of having to shield my two girls from the emotional angst they are experiencing during their father's kidney cancer and dialysis.
Now compounded by the fear that their grandmother ,my mom may have lung cancer.

That leaves me for everything.

Don't suggest therapy.

I'm a complete believer in it but...

The last therapist I interviewed had duct tape lining the jamb of her door to keep it from popping open to the waiting area.
Confidentiality issue there.

The therapist before that
suggested I let my partner have a child
and let them grow together.

We know how that ended.

I could go on.
There were two other
ill-fated attempts
at therapy before that.
I'll spare you for now.

So
I guess it's me
and my bike
and fantasy blogs
and scream therapy

see ya