Sep 30, 2006

Warning

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The post below may be sad.

6 comments:

GTX said...

Sorry, but I couldn't comment on you last post 'cause I start to cry....

Jozee said...

I'm sorry. I don't want you to be sad.

That's the reality of that day. Very, very unfortunate. There could be no other outcome.

I had seven months to watch and be part of the progression. It doesn't make me less sad- just gives me a clear cut perspective.

I can only hope this experience might encourage at least one person not to smoke.

Thirty five years of smoking cigarettes brought us to that day. Even though my mom had been a nonsmoker for seventeen years.

Be well. Josie

GTX said...

Too late for me. I'd stop 3 years ago, but in my dad's funeral I've smoke, and sine then I been smoking but nothing compared with years ago. Even then I never smoked a full pack a day.
I also tacked care of my father, specially when I arrived from the office and had to clean all that shit mess that he couldn't carry on his intestines, clean the floor and shoes, switching the clothes, or full of blood on his head by falling in the bathroom (at least three times, that I can recall, blood everywhere on bathroom's floor) and his stare at me (my father was always to compost, mature - I don't know the word - ) completely embarrassed, bubbling something that I never understand practically but I new for sure he was trying to tell me the story.

That man and my ma worked for a lifetime with us, the children, to get some economic stability and, has I had bad classifications on school and went to the real work with 18.
I understand you perfectly Josie, in another layer there are lots of people like us.

Jozee said...

It's not too late for you to stop smoking. That's your decision though.

I am sorry you went through such hardship with your dad. You were an amazing son, a good son to take care of him and nurse him the way you did. Not many sons would be able to do that.

I'm sure your father also may have been trying to tell you how much he appreciated your care.

You are a special person for doing what you may think of as an obligation.

Not all children take care of their parents. You are a loving and exceptional son for having done so.

Take care of yourself. Josie

GTX said...

(I take a deep breath...)

You to, Josie, you to...

Jozee said...

Peace, J.